The second visit I had to Francesca (the intuitive healer) we talked again about my mothers side of the family and how my mothers life was just caught up in something that was more than what we saw on the outside. Sometimes you come into a life and it's like swimming to the surface. Your born into it but you have these family things tied to your ankle like so much seaweed.
I don't ever think we covered why my great grandmother lost her mind. She had a terribly difficult and disappointing life. Maybe when I go again I will find out. We talked about my husband's stuff since he was seeing her as well and some of the things he was living were long standing things in his family as well and it was affecting our marriage.
Then it was time to jump on the table for the energy work. Again she placed the hot stones around my body. Behind my shoulders, neck, under my arms, in my hands and at the bottom of my feet. This is to raise your energy up so you can get the most out of the healing. She plays the BEST music. Then she dabs rosewood oil on my forehead and the palms of my hands.
She makes it clear you are to keep your eyes closed. You can feel the swooshing around you and her hands manipulate the energy above you.
At one point I heard and felt (the way you feel people enter a room) several people come in. I was kind of pissed. Why is she having people just roam in and out of this tiny room while I'm in the middle of a healing session? I'm fully clothed for these sessions but still it feels like an invasion of privacy.
Annoyed I just ignored it and tried to concentrate on relaxing.
I am the SPA QUEEN so I am accustomed to getting facials and massages etc. Usually during these things I'm either trying not to fall asleep or just listening to the music. When Francesca is working though it turns into some sort of weird movie in your mind full of things you thought you had forgot about. Memories come up and feelings return just waiting to be dealt with internally and emotionally.
At the end of the session I sit again in the chair and she tells me what impressions she got. Before we started she asked me if I thought of anything I wanted to talk about. I said something about people coming into the room. She smiled and said They always show up for you.
Confused I asked who she meant? She said "Your guides"
Franky I ignored that. I knew my husband was just on the other side of the door and I would just ask HIM who came in and out.
Then she started writing things down on her pad and talking about my fathers side of the family. She is not told anything about me by the person who referred me because this person did not know me that well. I do not offer anything until she has already told ME about her impressions. She knows nothing of my history or life. She just writes, stares at you and announces to you what she is getting psychically.
She said "They threw you out. This is what THEY DO" She has the funniest way of wording things that make you think...wait no..but wait YES! That is EXACTLY right. When you grow up around people who like to control the language in order to suit their needs you sometimes need an outside person to look at things and call a spade a spade.
I explained to her that my mother and my father were high school sweethearts. She got pregnant and HIS mother insisted that he deny paternity. At one point I think his father was shamed by MY grandfather (my mothers father) into doing the right thing (for that time period in the bible belt). He was driving my father up to Houston to marry my mother but kept getting lost. My grandfather said he just got a bad feeling about the whole thing and told them to take their country asses back home the third time they stopped at a pay phone to get directions. Good thing because I have been told by many people that I was being "protected" from these people.
Francesca affirmed this. She said "you vibrate so DIFFERENTLY than these people. They are in spiritual preschool and your in college. The strange thing is you keep incarnating with them to teach them a lesson and bring them up but every time (she laughed and shook her head) they just put their heads down in their shit and refuse to EVOLVE." I told her that if that were true my ass is done with them. I will not be coming back to them AGAIN.
She said this time I came in to stop this THING they do. That somewhere further back in the generations they had kicked out a male member of the family. She said by refusing to acknowledge YOu they are continuing that whole miasm.
Then she got really pissed. She said "I see all of these people in on this. A whole TOWN". She is really uncanny. My father lives in this tiny town and that is where they met. Just really small deliverance (the movie) type people. They all just fell in line with my fathers side and pretended not to know who my father was when I would go to that town to visit my great grandmother and cousins who still live there.
She said "not only do these PEOPLE have heavy heavy karma they will have to pay for so does that town as a GROUP". She looked nearly scared for them. lol
Huh. I never thought that a town could have karma. I never stopped to think about how complicit they were in this whole thing either. It's really kind of mind blowing to think about what I unknowingly put up with.
Then she said "Further...there are lies and slander being told about you by people in this family. They figure if they just diminish you then they can forgive themselves for doing this. You know what? God watches. God watches everything. This is going to get ugly for them"
Good! Let it.
I told her how I had met my half sister (same father) and we had a relationship for a time. Francesca said "You have to give her respect for coming forward and doing that. These people are really strong in their crap and I can see this was not easy for her. In the end though your just two different souls. She took advantage of you and did some underhanded things and I see you taking her to task on that. Then it was just easy for her to jump back on that family train where they lie and distort the truth. She decided..'You know what..I am one of them. I will sign on to this behavior and this lie' So..while she initially broke through that mess she let her insecurities take her down a path that ultimately betrayed you and now I see her as carrying this banner of hate and lies and negativity forward where it could have been left behind for the other generations to deal with. She will have to answer for that as well."
We wrapped it up by talking about having me do a similar ceremony for this male person I did not know and might have been born generations before. She said "You cannot kick a person out of a family. Even if your adopted out even if you are left behind. That DNA was put there by God and all of the 'stuff' good and bad is as rightfully yours as anyone that they acknowledge." So my job was to say to this person "Uncle (F told me to just refer to him as that) you had EVERY RIGHT to own your place in this family. You are NO LESS nor are you MORE than any member God put here with these people. They cannot undo what God has already done. You were WRONGED. I acknowledge you as my ancestor and I acknowledge your rightful place in your family."
When we had finished she told me that Mary was with me often. I told her that was weird because I was not catholic. She just said "Neither was she". lol
Good to know! lol
On the way home I asked my husband who kept coming in the room. He looked at me and said "No one. I never left that sofa in the waiting room." I guess he thought I was accusing him. I explained I would feel the whoosh of the door open and could feel PEOPLE moving toward me. Like the space literally contracting the way it does when a small space fills up. He said..they would have to step over me to get to the door and not one person came in!
Okie dokie!
I did the ceremony using the words she had written down for me and some of my own. So..hopefully that is one asshole trait those people are less burdened with and future generations won't even know about it. Then again it is a different time and I can't imagine they would have the excuses they had then.
Francesca said it was DISGUSTING how they manage to demonize an innocent baby for the sake of "appearances". That how they still try to do that to me so that they do not have to deal with this really huge wrong bumping up against their really simple faith. She said otherwise the two would have to be reconciled. You cannot come to God like that. You can't say "Sorry we did this" if your doing NOTHING to right the wrong. If your not confessing your lies and your complicity.
Interesting.
God watches.
